Wednesday, December 30, 2009

New Year's Resolution: Start Over!

So, we've been talking and it seems that a reboot is in order! We're going back to the beginning of our reading plan to get everyone on the same page. Those of us who have already started can review and jump in as soon as we get to a new day in the reading. I know it's hard to stick to something every single day. But I truly feel that this will be a very meaningful and worthwhile experience! And if there are more of us to read, discuss, and motivate, I know we will have a great time! I have changed the Reading list on the sidebar and now you can just click the daily passage to read it online!

So there you have it, January 1, 2010.



Thursday, December 3, 2009

I fell off the wagon trying to get back on the wagon...

I am in a season of searching. Heart-searching, soul-searching, mind-searching. It seems like nothing feels right anymore. My motivations are skewed, my actions are sinful, and my thoughts are full of anger and cynicism. What is going on? I knew reading through the Bible would likely dredge up some ugly goo, but I honestly haven't been keeping up. Perhaps it's the busyness of the holidays, more likely it's the fact that I self-sabotage everything I do. I don't think I am alone.

I get angry when I see other people getting close to God and feeling those highs. I used to feel them! Why not now? Why am I in the valley? AGAIN? My life is great! Why am I complaining? And I think we all know the answer here. Our lives do not and should not dictate our spiritual well-being or our joy. These are gifts only God can bestow upon us and we will never be able to earn them no matter how clean our homes are or how much money we save. Paige wrote about our purpose as women. I think this could be a gender neutral post in many ways though. As humans, we strive to earn our own well-being and it gets us nowhere. And because of that failing, we become bitter and resentful to the good news that is God's Word.

Reading the Bible like this has been tough for me. I keep trying to "get something out of it". A quick fix or an inspirational verse of the day. I fear that if I keep gambling with Truth, I am going to miss the point entirely.